I don’t have the guts to propose her.

I loved a girl a lot,we almost had a relationship, i Still love her , we were like very good friends…………… then there was some guy who spread rumors about us, so she, rather I stopped talking to her, its more than a year, and the rumors are still on, she doesn’t talk to me, now because of them,I keep on thinking about her day and night, an the embarrassment that i have caused her,,,,,,,I love her a lot, but after what has happened I don’t have the guts to propose her….